The fox cub plays hide and seek

 

Hello mr fox

 

A quieter week hospital wise.had not

 yesterday I had no hospital appointments, the gardener did not turn up the day before and as he is new and had not responded to any of my text, I took it he did not really want to do my garden. So I did it myself, the new lawn mower worked a treat and was easy to push along. I have a flymo but struggle with this. I was well pleased when I had finished, and as it was a better day health wise I was able to do it all in one go.

But on putting the mower away, stupid me missed my footing on the steps and I fall. I sat up On the ground,  but no bones broken , I could get up, the joe wicks online exercise sessions most be working, although weight wise they are not. I have a lot of cuts and scratches on my legs, which will take time to heal, due to my age, they are quite sore my legs. But I am still in one piece.

I am tired today perhaps because of the fall, so not much to report, just showered and plaster my legs up. My one through is from yesterday I wish I could have a dog, like the guide dogs , not sure what you call them but one that could be there if I get stuck and need help. Tried to look up where I can do this but does not seem to be.

Week of hospital visit to none

 Last week I was never away from the hospital, firstly there was the visit to the fracture clinic at the local hospital. My sister was with me and up until now we had been allowed to get her. Not this time the nurse on people control , said it was going to be too busy and could my sister wait in the cafe. This was the first time I had been since they started to lift all Covid restrictions. It was busy, full of children and parents, kids with broken arms , legs etc. Then mr and mrs joe bloggs and the older people. I was called and as usual sent to x rays, here you book in again the details have gone across from the fracture clinic, then you sit and wait. Again it was busy, here you have waiting the outpatient from a and e, the outpatient from everywhere else and of course the wards. I was called quite quickly considering the amount of people, and here you are moved to another chair to sit and wait outside x rays. It’s called music chair and wait.

Again I was in to x rays fairly quickly, greeted by a very cheerpy young x Ray person. Because I have cancer in the shoulder joint I have xrays here and than for the pelvic upper leg area, to make sure the holes in the upper leg bones have not got any bigger.

Than it’s back to fracture clinic to wait for the doctor. This was fun the nurses where starting to panic , I could hear we are running 20 mins behind and this is only after an hour, it’s only 10am. Then they could not decided where to sit the patients with masks to the parents with out masks, after a great debate they moved us all around. Finally I was called, after watching one lady go in fast because she told the nurse she could not possibly wait , she has too much to do. For me nothing new stable. My cartilage in the shoulder joint had now eroded and in time I will feel a lot more pain here. The legs stable.

Next day to the hospital for bloods, they do like their bloods. More sitting, more waiting and more needles. I am hard to get blood from so I hate this part. Some nurses are really good and get the vein, others are not. They have music on and sing and dance to side track you, it’s quite a chirpy section.

Treatment the day after, again more waiting, now that Covid is being reduced, the seems to be more waiting about, I use to be in and out. 

In the countryside by the old bridge across the river

 

 Wild seas hit land

Old roman bridge on the winding countryside river

 

FOx cubs and badger come out to play

 in oils .

Windy day

 So this afternoon we got the winds, gosh it was blowing a gale and with the rain really nasty, it’s still windy now but sunny. So no little walk, instead a bit of joe wicks, one of his 7 day senior, but due to my arm and bones modified, I can only stand so all exercises are modified for this. I wish he do a video for cancer people. When you think I use to do marathons.

Which brings me to another point , on going for my second Covid jab I was met by this woman, who really upset me, the first thing she said to me was your fat, do you do any exercise and what do you eat. She than told me I could only have the jab if I knew my weight as I would need a different needle. She than disappeared for ages, another lady was watching and eventually help me to a chair as I can not stand for too long now. When this person reappeared she had made up a weight , so as my nurse explained later was wrong. I told her that I did exercise by walking most days and by doing joe wicks, that I had cancer in the later stages and it was not tattooed across my forehead, I had run marathons, did bike rides and she should not jump to conclusions. In short when I told my cancer nurse, she said this was a little woman with a little knowledge, trained up for this role and it had gone to her head. The motte never judge a book by its cover. 

Today was painting day, this one is about the sea hitting the shore land on a rough day. It fits the day. 

Making up weekly tablets

 This morning we are suppose to have wild windy weather, not much happening outside it’s very quiet weather wise. Friday morning is make up weekly pill morning. From going to never seeing a doctor or taking a pill, to being kept alive by pills.

The are cancer tablets to slow the spread, the is no cure for me only buying time. Although I have begin to realise that this can in fact mean several years for some people and not so for others. Sickness tablets to stop the sickness , the bone cancer makes me sick. Pain killers for stopping the pain. Heart tablets.

Making the box up of the weekly tables can be boring to very therapeutic, depending on how I feel. Today it’s therapeutic. 

cancer the group session with make up

 Maggies who help people with cancer, a bit like Macmillan’s, I joined them for a group session on make up. This was my first time in meeting up with other people who have cancer, it was a small group of 8 people, may be due to Covid. 

We where each given a beauty bag full of facial cleansers and make up. THe items where donated by companies such a clarins, benefit etc. Then we learnt how to take our make off, using our products, to putting our make up on from foundation , concealer, eye shower, mascara, lipstick. All this and so much more in our little bag.

But what made this was yes the amazing free goody bag full of lovely make up. IT was the contact with other people going through the same thing. Ladies needing help with make up to hid facial cancer. Another lady who had been going through cancer for 8 years I think she said. For her it was a real treat and at 71 years old she was having fun with the make up. For another younger lady who was just starting her treatment, it was about looking good. But for all of us it was the chance to learn, to pass on usful information, from where to get a decent bra. The hospital give you a bra but they are not that good. 

I have lost the mobility in the right arm due to the bone cancer, I can no longer lift the arm over the head I can not zip up trousers that are zipped up from the back , as my arm will no longer go behind me. I needed a bra that fastened in front, it took a lot of research on my own, as the normal shops did not have what l needed, I eventually found what I needed on amazon, who have specialist companies. Other ladies had similar experience and had to look outside the normal shops and hospital etc to get what they needed. Which makes me think surely it would be a good idea for Maggie and Macmillan should have a fact finding sheet to help cancer patients found what they need outside the norm.

So it was a nice two hours of make up, and chatting and learning and not feeling alone.

 I am going back to my blog after several years away, during the pandemic I was admitted in to hospital, during a 6 week stay I was diagnosed with cancer level three, in the bones, breast and endocrine system. Since then I have been living a different life, as many people have during the pandemic. I do not think many people would realise the changes to their lives this pandemic would bring. For me the pandemic brought hospital, if the had been no pandemic I would not of gone to hospital, and never had know I had cancer. I was too busy working. If this is a good thing who can tell, would I be dead by now, who knows.

I have started painting again, as my life has slow down a lot.

This painting I finished yesterday. THE ancient woodlands

Oil painting done whilst dealing with cancer

Wild seas

Across the bridge